I grew up to be what my personality is all about right now: never speaking out my mind too often! I am not bitter nor I am too proud. Lately though, I felt some sense of vindication that how I reacted and spoken, much has been cleared inside of me.

In a culture where, being silent, in my younger years, equates respect to parents, never too long had it become my 'rule of thumb'. It carried on to my school and teenage years, and throughout my career. Getting a pat in the back, avoiding fewer enemies, being fed with shallow accolades, etc. were superficial rewards I got. And worse, I did not realise its effect has slithered silently and slickly dented my self-esteem to improve.

These past few days was not good in my social relationship. I have learned to seriously speak-up. Consequently, the unexpected reactions came to follow all around. They considered my action appalling, unseemly, disrespectful, desensitize of others, and basically rendering it as unacceptable.

Reviewing the impression this silence has caused me to become, which I thought was generally ideal - does not imply any intention of ruining every single genuine relationship that I built around me; relationships that have become a dike on my rather occasional scattered watery and insipid dispositions. I cannot simply afford that. Where I was lacking, these relationships had found me footing.

But rather, I found breaking my silence in a situation where it calls for as a way of sieving out uninviting societal relationships. Relationships whose purpose of association is to take advantage of you and to make you feel you have caused all the catastrophe on earth if they didn't like what you said.

With these virulent relationships, I came at this point and realised that being awfully accommodating and silent is not a good combination in life - yeah, at this age in my life; I saw and it started to dawn on me that no matter how I please these selfish relationships, they'll always find me lacking; I conquered and fully understood now that I can choose to play all the niceties and attempt to be liked or be sincerely passionate to relationships I truly treasure, but one thing must remain intact: enough self-respect to speak out my piece.

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